Looking back 10 years ago or so, I was one lonely girl who wanted nothing but marry an American. I wanted to be a mother, to be a wife and build a family. Sounds pretty easy for some but finding the right person definitely the hardest part. I was determined and did not give up.
I remember, I had to sacrifice not eating my snacks in school (sucking up my own saliva watching my classmates having their cold coke and bread), walk from home to school so I could save up some money for my long chats every Saturday and took advantage of the free internet hour at a school computer lab. If I go to internet cafes, it cost me $25 with webcam. Back then, I had no job, I was a full-time college student, my parents didn’t give me extra for chats so I really had to save my own money so that I can have something to use for chats. 25 pesos an hour was pretty expensive for me. I joined several online dating sites, met countless men in person from all over the world, got heart-broken three times, waited 4 years before I met my ex-fiance (now my husband).
I still remember vividly when I came home every after chat from the internet cafe and didn’t have a good chat, I would sob myself to tears and just feeling I was in the dark. I even questioned God if I could ever find that man who can complete my life. I did not tell anybody what I was going through. I just kept chatting until one day, this man from Cherryblossoms named Sandy sent an email to me.
From then on, we became constant chatmates, engaged, got married and happily married for over 9 years (story of how our relations begun can be read HERE). So, the reason why I am writing this today is because, to constantly remind myself that MY BIG PRAYER HAD BEEN ANSWERED. Had I not trusted God, would I live my dream life I am living today?
I can attest to what the bible verse above for I have experienced it, I am a living witness of God’s promise and intention for my life. Now I know why I didn’t get married to one of those guys I met in the past for He had better plans for me, plans to prosper me and not to harm me. Plans to give me hope and a future.
I am living my life exactly how I pictured out ten years ago! I am happy, satisfied and contented. Thank God for giving me this kind of life. Thank God for giving me a fruitful marriage, for giving me a husband who has been wonderful since day one, for the healthy and beautiful children and for the privilege of being able to stay at home to take care of my family. For the skills of blogging and couponing for they enable me to contribute to our family and my family in the Philippines.
This is my own definition of “success”. For me success is not about fame and spotlight, it is about achieving your dreams in life, the life you wanted to live and being happy with the people that surround you.
I OWE EVERYTHING TO YOU, OH LORD!